robotic thoughts

Video

Sat, 18 May 2013 22:17:23 -0700

american spirit

Sat, 18 May 2013 12:52:21 -0700

tictactoe

the wind blows the smoke wherever it goes

i never smoked so much,

i’d deny it during the day light though,

on weekend nights you will find me passing a cigarette with a girl

standing outside my doorstep

after so long i wrote

the story that began with the inquiry,

“do you wanna smoke?”

but only under the light of the stars

and at the time,

i was letting my imagination run wild.

in that case, maybe parallel universes are created only after they are thought of…

“a haircut and a shave”

and the rest is all a blur.

she taught me fireball is in my veins,

and I’ve been bleeding mine since.

Video

Tue, 14 May 2013 15:00:18 -0700

Who did I think I was? Who did I think that I could be? Oh, how...

Sun, 12 May 2013 23:45:59 -0700

Who did I think I was?

Who did I think that I could be?

Oh, how dare me.

I am the water in a puddle in the shade of a tree When I freeze...

Sat, 11 May 2013 17:11:02 -0700

I am the water in a puddle in the shade of a tree

When I freeze over, you are the sun

You cannot touch me

And the tree feels bad

I can tell by the way that it felt

But it still won’t move

So, the ice won’t melt.

No, it still won’t move

So, the ice won’t melt.

tastefullyoffensive: [sairobee]

Thu, 09 May 2013 00:36:32 -0700

tastefullyoffensive:

[sairobee]

michellemartian: “have you ever been completely sober during the weekends at all?” lol nope, not...

Thu, 09 May 2013 00:36:01 -0700

michellemartian:

“have you ever been completely sober during the weekends at all?”

lol nope, not since 2009.

waking season

Tue, 07 May 2013 14:56:16 -0700

while unhappy loop

if good_day THEN

life := life + 1;

elsif bad_day THEN

life:= life - 2;

else

null;

end if;

If life > 0 THEN

exit loop;

end if;

end loop;

"I'm counting to ten and now I'm feelin' alright!"

Thu, 02 May 2013 23:41:19 -0700

a veces me convierto borracho y hago cosas tontas

(root)beer^2

Thu, 02 May 2013 22:03:52 -0700

being responsible and finished all my shit.

hear the man above play a little on his guitar.

hear other active voices.

feels like a friday night.

studying is done for tonight, is it time for a drink?

i ran out of rootbeer.

i’d love to turn on my porch light that signals me home,

and walk 5 steps to knock on your door (20 numbers),

i am used to sitting in empty parking lots,

somehow they end up feeling

more comforting

than a shallow, empty,

(muffled voices up above)

almost silent,

living room.

the name implies differently,

but this place ain’t meant for living.

just existing.

and those are two entirely separate things.

interlude!

Tue, 30 Apr 2013 23:31:48 -0700

I will not become a stereotype.

I know my limits and I know addictions.

Hell,

if you like to believe in astrology,

I was born to be an addict,

I go through obsessions and addictions more than anyone else I know,

and some things,

some things stick with me.

Ironically, I never know until after the fact.

It’s tuesday evening, cheers.

last night on repeat. the best part is the instrumental...

Tue, 30 Apr 2013 16:26:12 -0700

last night on repeat. the best part is the instrumental progressive outro.

if you’re into that kinda thing. it’s beautiful when you get into it.

tastefullyoffensive: Jessica has updated her relationship...

Tue, 30 Apr 2013 16:22:51 -0700

tastefullyoffensive:

Jessica has updated her relationship status.

[via]

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Tue, 30 Apr 2013 15:54:56 -0700

10knotes:

This post has been featured on a 1000notes.com blog.

“I need to get more wine anyways, I’m almost out.” I’m drinking...

Mon, 29 Apr 2013 22:59:58 -0700

“I need to get more wine anyways, I’m almost out.”

I’m drinking fireball

“Mine’s classier!”

I ain’t aimin’ for classy when I drink alone.

future.

Mon, 29 Apr 2013 22:38:02 -0700

Some people build from tragedies.

Some people break from tragedies.

And some people are the tragedies.

every monday. oh wait. please see previous post.

Mon, 29 Apr 2013 20:21:08 -0700

every monday.

oh wait.

please see previous post.

thecompanionsdoctor: My week is basically: Monday Monday #2 Monday #3 Monday...

Mon, 29 Apr 2013 20:20:50 -0700

thecompanionsdoctor:

My week is basically:

Monday

Monday #2

Monday #3

Monday #4

Friday

Saturday

Pre-Monday

i am detached from myself 90% of my time. Detached synonyms: separate - discrete -...

Mon, 29 Apr 2013 15:49:06 -0700

i am detached from myself 90% of my time.

Detached synonyms: separate - discrete - disinterested

Yeah.

When something bad happens or you’re really nervous about a presentation or event, and you sort of just…go away. Detach and exist somewhere else. Like you’re watching life from afar. That’s me.

And 5% of the time I am ever conscious of the beauty in the world and I am walking somewhere admiring the landscape or listening to somebody speak about their passion and seeing their eyes fill up and I think, “this is beautiful”.

And the other 5% of the time I am ever conscious of the tragedy in the world and I am a deer-in-headlights walking by you realizing the death in the world and the tragedies in life and how it affects us all or I am curled up on my couch being eaten alive by silence and the absence of human affection and interaction and wondering if I am actually existing (I’m not).

It’s a worry free solution. Before I know it, I’ll be done with college. And I can move on with my life and start existing. I know there ain’t anything here for me. I can feel it. Because I don’t feel anything.

57

Sun, 28 Apr 2013 03:47:00 -0700

i am conquering this social anxiety condition one step at a time

and i will remind myself about tonight

that i swallowed the panic inside my smoke filled lungs,

cleared my blurry eyes,

took heather’s advice when she said, “Sorry I had to leave, get drunker!”

and took a deep breath,

knocked with shaky hands,

and said,

“Hi!”